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  “Then there’re the kidnappers. They know you’re here, which means that everyone associated with them knows. What’s to stop one or more of them from trying to intercept you? Cut you out and steal the money for themselves? That’s what makes you a target. Day or night, from the moment you pick up the briefcase at the consul, you’re a target. It puts you right in the middle.”

  I puzzled over something for a few seconds before it came to me. “American Indians used to form two lines and make prisoners run between them; hit them with sticks and clubs and stuff- gauntlet, that’s the word. Running the gauntlet. With that much cash involved, you could be attacked from either side at any time. So I’m going with you to Miami.”

  Tomlinson said, “Doc’s right. You can count me in, too.”

  “When you write back, there’s something else you should add,” I told her. “Lake’s next message needs to contain something personal. That only you or I would know. Something that tells us the e-mails are really from him.”

  My meaning had implications so dark that she didn’t comment. Just nodded.

  NOW we were on the bottom deck of my house, Pilar standing, watching Tomlinson and me preparing to return the sedated tarpon from its holding tank into the bay. The fish had been in the tank for nearly an hour. Gill coloring and opercula rate were both fine. So far, this first step in what would be a long and complicated series of procedures had gone well.

  Like everything else in my life lately, my luck had been good.

  Until now.

  I am forever and alternately amused then pissed off at how blindly I stumble through life. How is it that I keep forgetting one of the most powerful laws of physics? It is the law of “momentum conservation.” The law states that momentum lost by any collision or impact is equal to the opposite momentum gained.

  The law applies to our own day-to-day lives because, during good times or bad, we need to remind ourselves that just when it seems life can’t get any better-or worse-things inevitably change.

  And my life had been going very, very well. Lucky in life. Lucky in health. Lucky in love.

  I’d been running, swimming, and lifting weights daily with Dewey, who was not just my lover but my all-time favorite, kick-butt workout buddy. With her drill sergeant goading, I’d started eating better, watching my diet.

  Something else: A while back, I’d given up alcohol. Had to. I’d gotten into the dangerous habit of drinking myself to sleep every night. So I quit. I piled all the bottles of booze into a box, marched them down to the dock, and left them buried in the marina ice machine for some thirsty soul to discover.

  Many months later, when I mentioned to Dewey that I missed having a beer or two at sunset with the rest of the marina family, she offered a suggestion that was as appealing as it was simple. She said, “Do you remember when we first met? Weeknights, you never let yourself drink more than three beers. Ever. Weekends, you’d cut it a little looser, but you never broke your weekday rule. Even for parties. Why not go back and do that?”

  Which is exactly what I did. No more than three drinks a night. Ever.

  So I was in the best shape I’d been in the last ten years or so. I was enjoying the slow and lazy existence that is life at a small marina on the west coast of Florida. I had tropical blue mornings, glassy slick days on the bay, and Gulf Stream sun-sets with cold beer in hand.

  For work, I was involved with this new research project. I had a chance to play a role in being among the first scientists to devise a way to strip tarpon of fresh sperm, called milt, use it to fertilize eggs in captivity, and then raise the hatchlings until they were mature enough to release.

  Life had never been better. Which is why I should have known my luck was due to change. But why did the Fates have to choose my son? The world always seems at its cruelest when it selects a child as an instrument of misfortune.

  Holding the tarpon’s lower jaw, my right arm cradling its belly, I lifted the fish from the tank, then carried him along the boardwalk, taking quick, short steps because of his weight and slickness. His tail made a heavy, drug-dulled fanning thud against my inner bicep.

  Once on the mangrove bank, I waded into waist-deep water, immersing the fish, walking him, forcing clean bay water through his gills. It would be a while before he recovered and I could release him.

  Tomlinson was beside me, still shirtless, bony ribs showing, baggy Gandhi shorts dragging in the water. He said, “I’m sorry, Doc. What a soul downer. Because of my ex-love, the Nipponese mummy-her and her beef jerky heart-I can’t see my daughter. The girl’s been poisoned against me. But the thought of someone snatching Nichola makes me want to cry. I could, too. Right now. Bawl like a baby. I know how you must feel.”

  I said, “Something like this happens, it’s like a light goes on. Why the hell didn’t I spend more time with him? Why not get off my dead ass, grab a plane, and make the occasional visit? I’m the one who should have taught him how to fish, play ball. That sort of thing. Instead, we just traded e-mails. Now look what’s happened.”

  “Don’t do that, man. Don’t do the punishment gig. Besides, we both know why you couldn’t go visit. It’s because of her. ”

  Tomlinson swung his head toward my stilt house. “It’s because of the woman, Pilar. You think you’re still in love with her, man.”

  I said, “It’s that obvious?”

  “Oh yeah. You look at her like she’s a combination religious shrine and delicious morsel. Every time you’da went to Masagua to visit, it woulda been like having your heart winched out through the bunghole. No way, man. That’s why you didn’t go. You couldn’t go.”

  After a moment, he added, “In my opinion, it was for the best.”

  Looking at the fish, but concentrating on something else, I said, “T.M.? You’ve got good instincts. Probably the best of any person I’ve ever met. The way Pilar reacted to me… well, what’s your impression?”

  He said, “She’s not an easy one to read, man. A monster grabs her child, and she can still keep the emotional shields in place. How many women would be as calm as her under these circumstances? But, yeah, I definitely tuned right in on the vibes about you-weird that she’d let them show when she’s so good at the stoicism bit. You’re not going to like what I have to say.”

  “That’s O.K. Tell me the truth.”

  “For starters, she was more than chilly, compadre. She was distant, with a little touch of distaste thrown in. That was my strong impression. It may have seemed like she loved you once, but not now. She doesn’t even appear to like you much-which doesn’t mesh with the relationship you apparently once had. Did you ever notice her behaving oddly before?” His question seemed to have broader implications.

  “No, not really. What do you mean by that?”

  “Nothing… Did you do something to offend her? Piss her off?”

  “I don’t know. I’ve thought about it and thought about it. A few years back, we spent a couple of great weeks together down in Panama. It was like we’d never been apart. Then, nearly two years or so ago, she began to cool. Finally, she dropped right off the radar screen. The only time she contacts me is with a card at Christmas, a photo of Lake enclosed. Not even a note from her. And when I telephone, she’s never in.”

  “Did you ever ask your son about it?”

  The tarpon’s tail was beginning to flag more strongly now. “No. I wouldn’t impose on a child with a question like that. You wouldn’t either.”

  “Then my advice, Doc? After you release the fish, take her aside and ask her. Get it out on the table. What you’ve got to deal with now is too important to have any problems communicating. Which is why I’m going to leave you two alone.”

  He was already slogging away when I called, “How about a beer later?”

  Over his shoulder, he replied, “You betcha. After you talk to her, raise me on the VHF. Or my brand-new cellular phone. I can’t wait to hear how my pal screwed up this time.”

  Pilar was visibly uneasy now that Tomlinson w
as gone, the two of us alone near the big wooden fish tank on the lowest deck of my stilt house. Though she was within arm’s reach, her uneasiness created a distance that seemed an insular vacuum. It made a wall of those few feet.

  Communication is as rare as conversation is routine. She manufactured conversation to make the wall between us less evident. For a wall to exist, we had to have once been intimate. That was something she seemed unwilling to acknowledge.

  Tomlinson was apparently a comfortable subject. She spoke of how unusual it was for her to like and trust a man so quickly. She’d liked him immediately when she met him in Masagua. She liked him even more now, she said.

  When she asked, “Does he have family?” I got the impression that she was actually asking if he had a wife or lover.

  Maybe that’s why I replied with several harsh truths that I seldom share. “He has a daughter, Nichola, who refuses to see him. He has a brother who’s a heroin addict-Rangoon, if he’s still alive. His father’s gone native somewhere in the Amazon basin. He was a paleontologist. A brilliant one before he disappeared.”

  That jolted her. “So strange. So tragic.”

  I nodded. “A century or so back, his family accumulated a fortune on a couple of patents. Something to do with a synchronizing device that allowed airplanes to fire machine guns through spinning propellers. It made the killing ratios huge. The First World War alone, it had to account for thousands of dead. Some fortunes, I guess it’s heirs that pay the price.”

  “I’m surprised a man like Tomlinson would accept blood money.”

  For some reason, her elevated opinion of my friend, even though accurate, continued to irk me. I am often asked how Tomlinson makes a living. I always evade. It’s something never discussed around the marina. This time, though, I answered with another harsh truth.

  “He doesn’t accept family money. Hasn’t since he was a teenager and found out the source. By then, though, he’d spent a bundle, so he still feels like he’s stained for life. When he told you about the crop he was growing on the islands? That’s how he’s made his living ever since. Smuggling dope. Selling drugs. Sails to the Yucatan, sails back. Or sometimes as far south as Guyana. He’s gone into the rum business, too. Something legal, finally.”

  I paused, startled by the perverse pleasure I took in telling her that. Yet it didn’t trouble her. Even though the illegal drug trade has made chaos of Latin America’s economy, she seemed to approve. I could see it in her expression, just as I could also see that I’d been diminished in her eyes by my small betrayal.

  That’s exactly what I’d done, too-betrayed the confidence of my best friend.

  In an idiotic effort to redeem myself, I added quickly, “Not that he needs to do that anymore. It’s a long story, but he also has a huge following as a Zen teacher-people who’re devoted. He could probably double his great-grandfather’s fortune within a few years, they’re so many. If he pushed the money thing. Which he’d never do. The man’s motives are pure. No one doubts that.”

  Talking once again like I was Tomlinson’s friend.

  Pilar said, “He’s a religious leader?”

  “Through his writings, his teachings. You really have no idea. He’s always been that way, but then word about him began to spread on the Internet.”

  “I guess I should find that surprising,” my former lover said, musing. “But I don’t. There’s something very powerful about the man. Spiritual. When I met him in Central America, I felt it.”

  I told her, “Oh, there is, there is. Everyone says the same,” as I walked to the wooden fish tank. I put my hands on the rim and stared down into a world that I have always preferred because of the precise interlinkings, and clarity.

  I had the skimmer net now, cleaning out the detritus of shrimp husks and bits of fish scale, while snappers, immature grouper, and tarpon spooked below, their dense muscularity crackling.

  I pretended to concentrate, perplexed by my reaction.

  It was summer dusk, and mosquitoes were moving over the water out of mangrove shadows. Light in the western sky beyond the mangroves, beyond the marina, had an oyster sheen. High clouds to the east still reflected a rusty, mango band of sunset upon cumulus canyons.

  Eastward, if viewed from that high vantage point, was central Florida, cattle pasture, citrus, and saw grass. A hundred miles beyond were the condominium reefs of Palm Beach, Lauderdale, Miami.

  Different beaches. Different light. Different molecular makeup, in scent and feel, to the sea wind. Visible from the cumulus towers was an entirely different species of Florida.

  Tomorrow, we would be there.

  I asked the lady, “Hungry?” eager to change the subject.

  She shook her head. “I haven’t wanted food since I went into his room and found him missing. I don’t need to eat. I have a room at Sundial Resort on… is it Middle Gulf Drive? I think I’ll go there now. I’m exhausted.”

  I said, “I can see that. Tired because of the trip? Or maybe it’s the company.”

  She refused to be drawn into that discussion. “I’ll call you in the morning. We can talk about what time we should leave for Miami. Do you know your way around the downtown area?”

  I replied, “I don’t know my way around the downtown area of any city in the world.”

  She didn’t smile. “In that case, we’d probably better leave early. It may take us a while to find the restaurant where we’re supposed to be.”

  I agreed and told her that I’d walk her to her rental car. I put down the skimmer net and turned her easily by touching her elbow. I guided her instantly shoreward, along the boardwalk toward the mangroves, by touching her elbow a second time. Suddenly, I knew how people with communicable diseases feel.

  I wanted to ask her, Why? Why was she reacting this way? She wasn’t just cool, she was icy. Tomlinson was right. There was more than just a touch of distaste. What the hell had I done to offend her?

  I wanted to press it, but the timing didn’t seem right. Instead, I stuck to the subject. I told her what we had to focus on now was finding Lake, staying smart and negotiating his freedom. So the first thing we had to do, I told her, was make a decision. Was she absolutely certain she didn’t want any kind of official help? I added, “Professional help, I’m talking about.”

  Walking, still maintaining a measured distance between us, she said, “I don’t see how it’s possible. The American FBI, Florida law enforcement agencies, they certainly have no jurisdiction over a kidnapping committed in Masagua. Even if they did, I wouldn’t risk getting my son killed.”

  Her tone seemed unnecessarily sharp, and I matched it when I replied, “He’s my son, too, remember. That’s why I want to consider all the options. Review all the assets to make sure we bring him home safely.”

  “Biologically, you have taken the role of his father. Of course. I’m also aware that in the last two years or so, you and Laken have developed a… well, at least a friendship through your correspondence. But let’s be clear about one thing, Marion. When it comes to Laken’s well-being, I make the decisions.?Claro? I welcome your advice, your input. But I have final say.”

  She’d stopped in the mangroves where the boardwalk exits onto the edge of the gravel parking area near the gate to the marina. Mosquitoes had been trailing us in an orbiting veil, and now they began to vector, flea-hopping off clothing, seeking skin.

  I took half a step toward her. I watched her take a full step back as I said, “I’m well aware that the FBI has no jurisdiction in Central America. That’s not what I meant by professional help. There may be other options. I know people who are military types-covert extraction experts-who might be willing and able to help us find and free Lake.”

  She said, “You don’t think I’m already aware that you know those kind of people? Apparently you never realized that I’m not stupid. Why do you think I came to you looking for help? It’s not because you’re his father. And it’s certainly not because I think you’re a nice person.”

  H
er tone was so bitter, so accusatory, that I was momentarily speechless. She’d never spoken to me like that. I’d never heard her speak to anyone like that.

  “What in the hell is wrong with you, lady? You’re furious at me, and for no reason. You’ve been treating me like I’m poison. Why? ”

  When she tried to turn, I caught her arm and pulled her to me, my face looking down into hers. “I’m not going to let you run away. If I’ve done something, if I’ve said something to hurt you, get it out. Let’s talk about it. But no more of your passive-aggressive crap. You’re too good for it, and so am I. Plus, you’re the one who said it-we don’t have time.”

  Her face was shadowed in the mangrove dusk. She looked into my face, then looked at her arm until I took my hand away, freeing her. I watched her straighten her blouse, her slow, deliberate gestures telling me that I should feel like a bullying ass because I’d stopped her.

  In a voice that was maddeningly aloof, she said, “All right. Maybe I should have told you months ago. When I first found out.”

  I didn’t like the sound of that. I could feel my pulse in my neck and the side of my head.

  “Found out what?”

  “About you. Who you really are. What kind of man you are. In Masagua, when we met, when… when I began to have feelings for you, thought I fell in love, it was with a man who I believed was a marine biologist. A scientist. A good and decent man, a researcher dedicated to his profession-”

  I said, “I was. I still am.”

  She held up a palm- quiet. “I knew there was also a possibility that you were working for the American State Department. Or military. I’d heard the rumors. I’m not stupid. But most such agents are simply abroad to gather data, to make quantitative analysis. They’re observers. I had no problem with that. But you did more, Marion. That’s what I discovered. Far more.”

  I stood silently, breath shallow, fists clenched as I listened to her add, “A person brought me the files. Someone showed me the photos. A person who became interested in your background and did the research. I couldn’t believe what I read. What I saw. I didn’t want to believe.